The
gay community has a big ol’ problem, and it’s not figuring
out what to wear to the Tonys year after year.
Crystal meth is out of the closet. Gay publications around the country
are running stories about the bitch called “Tina.” An alarm
has gone off and a lot of folks are no longer hitting the snooze button.
Sorry. Something about this subject makes me leap for metaphors.
In one story, ex-addict Peter Staley of New York says a year and a half
ago the methamphetamine problem was rarely discussed. “If it came
up, it was someone bragging about their wild weekend on meth.” Now
he says gay guys are as likely to tell each other to keep away from the
stuff as they are to say, ooh, try it, it’s the best thing since
the International Male catalog.
A piece in San Diego’s Gay & Lesbian Times points out, “Though
the meth epidemic is not unique to gay and bisexual men, what is unique
among this population is the use of meth primarily to facilitate and enhance
sex.” All too often, studies show, men who are experiencing “this
euphoric, chemical self-confidence” are also giving safe sex the
bum’s rush, pun sorta intended.
From 10 to 20 percent of all gay men use meth, and maybe clear up to 40
percent in San Francisco, The Associated Press guesstimates. Among its
many charms, Tina apparently makes addicts of users faster than a drag
queen pounces on a sale-priced wig. Aside from the glaring HIV risk, meth
also offers the user the chance to lose his teeth, or sink into paranoia.
Ironically, meth abuse can also make it tough to have an orgasm, or sustain
an erection, the so-called “crystal dick” effect.
All this and you get to pay money for it too? Such a deal.
I’ve been reading the explanations from experts of why gay men are
so attracted to this drug, but what sticks with me most is the sentiment
of longtime user Bart Johnson, clean for seven years, who remembers the
precise date and time he first tangoed with Tina. He remarks that “it’s
the first time I really ever felt normal . . . Suddenly all those inhibitions
and feelings about yourself go away. Everything that you thought was bad
about yourself you completely forget.”
We’re not going to erase anytime soon all the factors that can make
a gay man feel badly about himself. Ranging from worldwide homophobia to
the stigma of having HIV to the gay male preoccupation with appearance
to the heartbreak of psoriasis, there’s a lot to be fixed.
I like the approach of director and actor John Cameron Mitchell, who says
we need “intelligent scare tactics, to convince people the drug is
uncool.” He notes, “You have a lot of young gay men coming
into the city—they were the nerds in high school, the wallflower,
the ugly kid.” To them “the city is the place to be sexy, to
be a star, and they get a false burst of confidence with a drug like this.”
Then there are the bathhouses and sex parties and people who advertise
online that they’re into the “Party and Play” scene,
meaning meth and sex together. Sometimes it seems easier to stop a charging
rhino (by taking away its credit card, silly), than to change a culture.
It’s seriously tempting, as we struggle for equal rights, to hide
our dirty laundry. Throw it down a mine shaft, even. But we know that hiding
something will not make it go away. A lot of us have already given that
a whirl.